God’s Will Over My Fears

Growing up the way I grew up you tend to build a lot of hesitancies, trust issues and FEARS!!! You look at the world and people with skepticism. One of my greatest fears was that I would follow in the footsteps of my parents. Now considering how my parent’s choices and lifestyle impacted my childhood you could imagine the hesitancies, trust issues and fears that I had accumulated within a 12-year span. With that in mind you would assume that my second greatest fear is valid in the mind frame of someone like me. What was my second greatest fear? My second greatest fear was having children of my own. My fear/thought process of having my own children were that if I had kids, I would lose them to the same way my parents lost me. Thinking about all the hardships, the heartbreaks, the pain, the tears, the agony and the abuse that I went through I knew that was not a world I wanted to bring children into.

Fast-forward to today. I have a beautiful, sweet, very inquisitive 9-year-old daughter, who I absolutely LOVE.  I have an amazing husband, whom I’ve been married to for 11 years, who is the gentlest giant you’ll ever meet (in my opinion). I no longer have the fear of making decisions that would jeopardize my family’s life. I no longer have the hesitancies, trust issues and fears that I once had. I am not the person that I once feared that I could become. I make decisions that will benefit and advance my family. Not decisions that would cause hurt and harm to my loved ones. I have renewed my mind from who I thought I would be, and I am making daily strides to become the person that God has planned and predestined me to be. (Read Jeremiah 29:11) I want to encourage you to let go of the hesitancies, trust issues and fears that you have. Allow God to show you the life that He has planned and predestined for you. Become the example of an overcomer that someone needs to see. Become the person you DESERVE to be and while you are at it become the light that you were created to be!